Processing

As I sit at this screen at 4:00 in the morning waiting to leave for our 6:00 AM flight, I just want to slow time down so that I can process all that is on my heart.

This morning I am sad to leave my family.  Leaving them is so not easy for this momma.  My heart hurts that I can't hold my little treasure for 16 days and I am worried that when I get home I will have to work very hard to earn her trust again.  I have never left her for even a night in the last two years that I have had the privilege of being her momma so I pray that God will show up in a mighty way in the next week and a half to protect her and give her peace.

I am grateful.  Grateful to know a God who orchestrated all of this.  A God who has called me to love the least of the least and who continues to provide a way for us to live out that which He has called us to.  Oh this adventure that He has us on is simply greater than anything I ever imagined.

I am so very thankful for the good friends and prayer warriors who are on their knees this very minute for me.  I am in awe of the many people that God has used to write my baby girl's story in the last ten months.  Without so many of you giving and sharing what you have with us, I simply couldn't be boarding a plane to get my sweet girl home.  You have no idea how much I love you and how God has used your offering to make a HUGE difference in one very special little girl's life.

I am excited to share the next two and a half weeks with my dear friend Toni and her daughter, Anna.  They are giving up sixteen days of their life to love on my girl and help me get her home.  I couldn't do this alone and so I am forever indebted to them for their willingness to do hard with me for the next two and half weeks.  Anna Mei will always have a special bond with them.

So in less than eight hours, we will catch our flight and begin the long journey to China.  There on the other side of the world a sweet girl is lying in a crib unaware that her momma is about to hold her for the first time.  She has no idea that in the next five days her life will change forever.  She has no idea of the love, joy, and hope that she is about to receive, but God knows and has written this story for us.  I rest in knowing that this morning.  I rest in knowing that God goes before me and that He will be with me!

God will go before you and He will be with you. He will never leave you or forsake you.  Do not be afraid.  Do not be discourage.  Deut. 31:8