To My Oldest Baby

To My Emily,
I had the pleasure of spending time with you at your physical appointment yesterday.  It is hard for me to believe how grown up you are.  As I watched you calmly receiving three shots in your arm and listened to you read off and answer your own medical history, I couldn't help but remember the anxious little girl you once were anytime we went near the doctor.  I am watching you become a woman as God continues to mold and shape you for His purposes and it is such a beautiful thing.  You are funny, smart, caring, quiet, and analytical.  You don't like to talk feelings or dwell on things in the gray.  You just want to be told what to do and how to do it so that you can obey.  Your desire to obey will be such an asset to you as you follow God's leading in your life and sometimes I wish for just a moment that I could have just a small piece of that desire that God has placed in you.  I have such fun with you and I love that you still value my opinion so much.  I continue to challenge you to give yourself away and watching you do that with your baby sisters has been beautiful.  Yesterday alone I watched as you interacted with each of them lovingly countless times throughout the day.  I watched you run to Anna each time that she called Emily all afternoon.  I saw you lovingly sitting stroking Jill's hair and reading to her as Anna napped and I can't help but thank God for the gift that you are to me.  I love being able to raise you up and cherish all the memories that we have made together.  You were the first to make me a momma so you have been on the receiving end of many first time parenting mistakes, but you are better for it and so am I.  Today, I was reminded how little time I have left with you under my roof and I prayed for you earnestly with urgency during my usual prayer time because of it.  I can't wait to see where God leads you and count it pure joy that I get to be your mommma.  I love you with all of my heart.
Momma