I Doubted

After first coming home with our treasure, there were months-many months-that I thought we would never be able to do typical things again.  I remember that even after having her home for two months, she was still sitting on the floor during her meal time only letting my finger in her mouth and still afraid to sit in the high chair.  I was still having to feed her sitting on the floor in the kitchen and she would move around like crazy as she grew increasingly nervous as I continued to try to get nourishment in  her anyway I could.  There would be food all over the floor, all over me, and I rarely got to eat when the family did.  If I was eating with Daddy and Em, it meant that our Jillian was off on her own doing something else disconnected from our family.

It is because of this that sitting together at the table last night as a family is absolutely something to praise God for.  We ate waffles for dinner.  Jillian ate waffles!  There she was at our family table sitting in her booster chair with her momma on one side and her daddy on the other while her big sissy rolled her eyes laughing at this crazy momma for videoing her little sister who was eating a waffle for the first time. 

Here's our little sweet thing enjoying her waffles.  Hope it makes you smile!

GOD IS SO GOOD! If you ever forget..If you ever doubt...just get a glimpse of this little beauty who is slowly and miraculously grabbing hold of this life as God heals all the places in her heart that were so broken by her circumstances. She is truly amazing. I wish that there were words for the JOY that daily resides in my heart because of her. I just can't explain. I just can't make anyone understand by typing mere words how incredible it is to be her momma. She has added so much to our family and I just can't believe that we get to do it again! If I live a hundred more years, I will never..NEVER..get over the goodness of this God I love so much who has given me this wonderful family.