I'm Listening to Her Laugh

I'm listening to Jillian laugh and it brings tears to my eyes and praise to my heart.  This little four year old of mine is so much more than just a child..she is God's heart, our love, a miracle, and watching her thrive in this place is just sometimes so emotional for me that it actually leaves me without words.  In the last five months, this amazing little girl, who was literally left for dead two years ago, has gained a new little sister, gone two solid weeks without her momma while I was in China, moved to a new state, started school, and she has come ahead through it all.  Truly, I am overcome with love for this little who continues to change me so much more than I could ever change her.  How I love her and am blessed that God chose me to be her mother.  I sat rocking her against my chest last night before bed and I just wished that I could hold on to her forever because this child does something to me.  This child shepherds me into the presence of the Lord unlike anything that I have ever experienced.  He is written all over her.  His goodness, His mercy, His compassion, His love, His plan, His design..is threaded throughout her very being and, while this is true of every human being, it is just so easy for me to see it in her because of how she has changed me.  Today, and everyday, I am grateful to God for choosing me to do this.  I am so blessed to be the momma of this clan and to watch God write my children's stories intertwining me in their lives as I walk out life next to them.