Behind Us

While I love, love, love Christmas and everything about it...celebrating the Savior's birth, gift giving, singing, baking, decorating!! I am so very thankful that this year is behind us. Thankful because celebrating without Jill was heart wrenching. There were so many moments that I was too overcome with sadness because of her absence that I could not love anything. I miss her so..it hurts my heart deeper than anything I have ever felt. Adding Christmas 2010 to the scrapbooks just means that one more celebration on the timeline of celebrations has passed and that there is one less thing to get through until Jill is here with us!

Just think..Next year, she will be here with us! WITH US!! She will be an orphan no more! She will be home with her family. Oh to see her face in the glowing candlelight of the sanctuary as we sing silent night. To see her little chubby hands rolling cookie dough. To see her running down the stairs in her pjs on Christmas morning. Most of all, to hear her laugh at all her daddy and sissy's silly antics that seem to make an appearance at all our "traditional" family gatherings.

Despite not being here, she did receive gifts....

Her first stocking from Grandma and Grandpa.

Her cousin G and sissy enjoyed unwrapping her gifts at MeMe's house.

Counting down the days until we meet you and dreaming of seeing your face. Love you so much Mei, Mei. So very much!