There is so much that God is working in my heart this weekend and so much that I am thinking and feeling.
As I stare into the eyes of my baby girl, waiting a half a world away, my heart is shattered at the emptiness there. The lack of joy, the absence of relationship, the numbness that I see in her eyes brings me more sadness than I think I can bare. How I long to see her smile and for her to experience the relationships that come from being in a family. How I want more than anything for her to experience the depth of love that comes from a mother and father. How I want her to know the love of the only Father who has been with her since the beginning-God. How I want her to know the happiness and Joy that come from Him.
Dreaming of Jill so much lately and praying that her little heart is ready for the healing that can come from our God who is bigger than all the trauma she has faced in her little life. Praying that God will use our family to bring her hope and joy. Praying that I can be the kind of momma that she needs to love her with the love of Christ because He first loved me.
Loving and Missing her so much today. Turning it over to the Lord and resting in His plan to bring her home in His time. Knowing that this journey is ordained by Him and finding rest in His peace and perfect plan.