Because our baby girl is in third grade this year, she gets to participate in special olympics. She has gotten to try her hand at bowling already, and it was such a joy to watch her. I watch her..all grown up..and I can hardly believe this is the same girl that I was handed nearly seven years ago.
She is so confident, so happy, and so so big!
There were hundreds of bowlers. It was packed, loud, and she did it!
She participated and bowled two games. When it was done, we got her out of there as she was pretty spent, but she didn't mind having the afternoon off of school so it was a win for her! I am so proud of her. What a precious girl she is growing up to be!
Six months home for this incredible girl has come and gone. These last six months have flown by. Six months is so short, but at the same time it seems like forever, as I can't remember myself without her. I was snuggling her frame in my arms a few days ago, and I was overcome with grief that this sweet, precious gift had to wait two and a half years to know what it was like to be rocked by a momma. Such a devastating loss my dear girl was handed shortly after her birth. Yet from this loss has come such a beautiful family that is full to the brim with love, chaos, and crazy because of my girl's presence.
How I love this little one more than I could have dreamed when waiting for her. When this girl was given to me six months ago, I had no idea that she loved avocados, music toys, or tickling.
I didn't know that she would crawl to the bathroom like a mad munchkin when she heard the bath running.
And I couldn't have dreamed that she would so perfectly compliment our family. Good! It is so good to love this girl as mine! Happy six months home my treasure!
Here I am logged into this space knowing that I have about five seconds before someone screams, poops, or calls for me with a impatient voice. There is so much to say..so much going on in my heart, and yet the space and time to process is so elusive. Days are chaotic, loud, and demanding. Quiet and peace escape me as moments run together at such speed that days, weeks, and months jumble together. I wish I could just stop for a second to get out some of the very important things that God is planting in my heart. I long to just drink in the beauty that is marbled with the hard as I journey through this life. How I desire so much to just have some time to be soaking in the Lord. Yet with twenty hours a week of medical appointments, tea parties, requests for "SWING ME!", and so much more that demands my attention..such time doesn't ever come. Isolation, business, and tasks so numerous it is impossible to not be overwhelmed are the enemies that haunt me these days, and yet even in the hardest of times this great HOPE that I carry from knowing Jesus is such a comfort. This is all so temporary..the crazy, the chaos, the overwhelming..will all pass away, but this glorious HOPE is mine for eternity. This morning I praise my God that He chose me. I am grateful to know His love. As I was feeling particularly overwhelmed one day last week, He pursued me making sure that Matthew 6:25 came up three different times over a span of two days. Three times I read or heard..
Do Not Worry
25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes?26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[e]?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin.29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these.30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith?31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them.33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Three times the God of the universe revealed Himself to me to provide comfort and reassurance just because He loves me. And I feel so incredibly burdened for those who go through this life without Jesus because, while my moments can be overwhelming just like everyone else, I have this JOY that comes in the morning. I have this one who carries me when I can't walk myself. I have this one who is beside me..inside me..day in and day out. I have this one who never, never leaves me..never lets me down..never forgets me. One who reminds me daily that I am His. Beyond grateful this morning for this HOPE only Jesus can give.
I am a Christ follower, wife of 20 years to my best friend, and a stay at home momma to five amazing daughters. I am currently waiting for one precious special needs treasure to come home from China. I am passionate about the orphan and special needs adoption. I love to teach God's word, am involved in youth ministry alongside my dh, and love,love, love cooking. Above all, I desire to serve God and surrender my life to His call.