Monday, September 18, 2017
Wednesday, September 13, 2017
Thursday, September 7, 2017
Earning the place of momma in the heart of my babies is a long, hard fought process. I know this in my head. That is why we encourage attachment at all costs. Even after four months home, no one else (except Daddy or her sisters) holds Ellie, feeds her, or cares for her.
I don't leave her in the church nursery, don't go out to dinner, and keep her sleeping next to me until I feel like attachment beginnings are solid. I say beginnings because attachment work never ends with our girls from hard places, but it doesn't have to be so exclusive when they begin to give me the place of momma in their heart. Some of my girls have taken years to be ready to move out of the exclusively momma phase, and others only months, but it is a phase that is so necessary for healthy family relationships so I do it as long as I feel like my little one needs. It can be daunting, and it can a road full of steps forward and steps back, but when the steps begin to be mostly forward oh my heart soars!
Yesterday, I went in to get my Ellie Grace. For so many months, she would push away from my embrace, but yesterday she returned it. She wrapped her little arm around mine and pressed her chubby cheeks into my arm with the biggest smile. Oh my momma heart was full! Each new day, each new shared experience is a step in the right direction. It is a privilege to fight for the heart of my babies, and being their momma is a precious gift that is born out of so much loss and hurt. Rejoicing today that my sweet girl is beginning to be able to return this momma's love, and eating up every single hug and smile she throws my way..today and for a lifetime.
Monday, August 28, 2017
As of today, all of my babies are back in school! We are all trying our best to adjust to our new schedule, but with different starting times, buildings, and therapies all over town, it can be tricky.
Friday, August 25, 2017
The car is packed...overflowing really, and today is the day that I begin the journey to take my first baby to college. I don't know how we got here, and I honestly don't know how we will survive. I am an emotional momma by nature as I feel deeply about everything that matters most to me. I can cry buckets over Gotcha Day videos even if I have no earthly connection to the parents welcoming their new babe. I can rarely get through a worship set on Sunday morning without spilling a few tears, and often I choke back many daily as my sweet girls ask about their China mommas. Anyway, the next three days as I move this dear girl of mine out of my house will not be pretty for this momma. No mascara will be worn. Don't get me wrong, I want this. This is what we parents plan our whole lives for..we love and train so that they can leave the nest and be successful. I know that in my head without a doubt, but getting my heart to agree is another matter entirely. I know many mommas say that the time goes by so quickly, and I would definitely agree. I have done my best to prepare for this, and here we are just like that. Today the journey begins. Tomorrow, we will arrive at her new home, unpack the cute, aqua decoupage crafts, hang the paintings, make her new bed, and close the door on her childhood. YIKES! My dear girl is ready, and I am so glad because this sobbing momma couldn't take it if my girl was a crying mess beside me. If you think to pray for strength, this momma would be forever indebted to you as I know that I can do all things through Christ even if it means leaving my heart in the world without me beside her.
Monday, August 21, 2017
Thursday, August 17, 2017
Wednesday, August 16, 2017
Anna Mei was up and at going at 5:50 AM this morning as usual. I love that my girl is an early riser. Not only is she an early riser, but as soon as she wakes the girl is ready to go. She had this spa up and going a bit after 6:00 AM this morning, and boy was it fun!
Even Jillian wanted to play with us which always makes this momma so very happy.
Her nails were quite a sight with the red polish accenting the mug and dirt that is ever present on my mud loving girl's hands.
Anna Mei was my make up artist too.
If you ever feel like a 5:00 AM manicure, our kitchen table is the place to be.
Another beautiful morning to be beyond grateful for the fun these little girls bring me. Beyond blessed to be their momma!
Monday, August 14, 2017
Friday, August 11, 2017
After an appointment at the U the other day, we headed with a picnic lunch to the fossil gorge. It is on the way home from the city so it was a perfect detour to turn our appointment into an outing.
It wasn't a large area to hike which was perfect for our little girls' short legs.
The temperature was beautiful,
and our sweet girls loved, loved exploring.
It was a day that I stepped back out of for a minute, and gave great thanks that these enthusiastic little ones are mine. How life would be so dull without them.
There were wonders everywhere, and our girls took full advantage with wonder.
I am not sure we had the actual patience to find a real fossil, but we sure thought we saw many.
We also did plenty of hamming it up while we explored.
A little sad too that summer has to end.
Monday, August 7, 2017
After donuts, we headed to a city park. The park has some vintage carnival rides which, for less than 75 cents a ride, where the greatest thing ever for our little girls!
They loved them!
Ellie Grace enjoyed strolling in the stroller with Daddy throughout the park while the girls rode, and I didn't get one picture of that sweet thing.
The end of summer is so near which always makes me sad. Oh that summer could last forever somehow!
Sunday, August 6, 2017
We took full advantage of a trip to the University last week because summer is slipping away.
We all loaded up, and after our therapy was over, headed to the Hurt's Donut Shop.
A deliciously, fun time was had by all!
Never in my wildest dreams did I think this girl would ever enjoy eating a donut, but here she is eating a donut!
I love that this little one doesn't stay put for a picture anymore. She is all over the place, and since she couldn't even sit up three months ago, we are thrilled!
Double thumbs up for delicious donuts.
Saturday, August 5, 2017
18. How did we get here?
How can it be that we are moving this young woman out of our house in just three short weeks?
I have no answers, but the reality is our time with this girl as a child are gone..just like that. I am grateful to God for the gift of this incredible girl who was the first to make me a momma. I am even more grateful that God didn't follow my plan of only doing this momma thing once because having an empty nest in just three short weeks would not have been a good idea. What was I thinking in my twenties? Grateful God gave me just a few more of these beautiful babies (two of whom will likely never leave me) because my nest will never be empty. Praise God for His plans!