Sunday, October 15, 2017
Buckets of anything in reach are not safe from dumping when this girl is around.
She was so thrilled to discover the foam bin of letters left out that her sister was working with. Anna Mei set in on her seat which is well accessible when she pulls up to it...
N never tasted so good.
She looks pretty proud of her accomplishment. Wouldn't you say?
Friday, October 6, 2017
Wednesday, October 4, 2017
As a former track coach and runner, I am pleased to announce
that my Molly ran five (YES THAT IS FIVE) laps at the red black track attack at her school last week. It was ninety degrees and she looked like a hot mess when she came home, but she was so very proud of herself.
Friday, September 29, 2017
Tuesday, September 26, 2017
Anna Mei is reading up a storm. It is hard for her, but it is finally starting to click!
It never gets old seeing a little one reading a book they pick up for the first time!
Ellie Grace is so busy herself getting into everything. She is wicked fast in this gait trainer, and can reach so much more to pull down. Never a dull moment.
Saturday, September 23, 2017
Friday, September 22, 2017
It thrills me when this girl helps, and lately she doesn't leave the kitchen as all she wants to do is help me make everything. How I dreamed she would get to this place all those hard, hard months when she was so locked in her own world. This summer was the first without summer school, and we just saw her blossom here at home because we had so much time with her. She even got very good at the unloading the dishwasher...
In fact, she loves unloading the dishwasher, and won't let anyone else help. I love watching her as she knows where all the dishes go. She is a smart, smart little peanut and being her momma is such a JOY!
Thursday, September 21, 2017
Just look at my Jilly! She is so engaged, so connected, and smiling at the camera. In the beginning there were many dark days that I never could have dreamed this was possible. All the more reason to praise God!
My Anna Mei is obsessed with Jesus right now. It is a beautiful thing, and I pray she keeps Him at the head of her life all her days. She loves having "preaching meetings" where she shares the gospel with her sisters. Last week, she drew pictures of Jesus and wrote sentences about his dying on the cross to save the lost. She took the pictures to the beach and hung them up in the restroom for all to see. She loves Him with her whole heart so she was anxious to explain the illustration to us....
My days are so busy, but I love this life! It is full of so much that makes each moment so much richer and more abundant than I could have ever imagined! I am just so very thankful!
Monday, September 18, 2017
Wednesday, September 13, 2017
Thursday, September 7, 2017
Earning the place of momma in the heart of my babies is a long, hard fought process. I know this in my head. That is why we encourage attachment at all costs. Even after four months home, no one else (except Daddy or her sisters) holds Ellie, feeds her, or cares for her.
I don't leave her in the church nursery, don't go out to dinner, and keep her sleeping next to me until I feel like attachment beginnings are solid. I say beginnings because attachment work never ends with our girls from hard places, but it doesn't have to be so exclusive when they begin to give me the place of momma in their heart. Some of my girls have taken years to be ready to move out of the exclusively momma phase, and others only months, but it is a phase that is so necessary for healthy family relationships so I do it as long as I feel like my little one needs. It can be daunting, and it can a road full of steps forward and steps back, but when the steps begin to be mostly forward oh my heart soars!
Yesterday, I went in to get my Ellie Grace. For so many months, she would push away from my embrace, but yesterday she returned it. She wrapped her little arm around mine and pressed her chubby cheeks into my arm with the biggest smile. Oh my momma heart was full! Each new day, each new shared experience is a step in the right direction. It is a privilege to fight for the heart of my babies, and being their momma is a precious gift that is born out of so much loss and hurt. Rejoicing today that my sweet girl is beginning to be able to return this momma's love, and eating up every single hug and smile she throws my way..today and for a lifetime.
Monday, August 28, 2017
As of today, all of my babies are back in school! We are all trying our best to adjust to our new schedule, but with different starting times, buildings, and therapies all over town, it can be tricky.
Friday, August 25, 2017
The car is packed...overflowing really, and today is the day that I begin the journey to take my first baby to college. I don't know how we got here, and I honestly don't know how we will survive. I am an emotional momma by nature as I feel deeply about everything that matters most to me. I can cry buckets over Gotcha Day videos even if I have no earthly connection to the parents welcoming their new babe. I can rarely get through a worship set on Sunday morning without spilling a few tears, and often I choke back many daily as my sweet girls ask about their China mommas. Anyway, the next three days as I move this dear girl of mine out of my house will not be pretty for this momma. No mascara will be worn. Don't get me wrong, I want this. This is what we parents plan our whole lives for..we love and train so that they can leave the nest and be successful. I know that in my head without a doubt, but getting my heart to agree is another matter entirely. I know many mommas say that the time goes by so quickly, and I would definitely agree. I have done my best to prepare for this, and here we are just like that. Today the journey begins. Tomorrow, we will arrive at her new home, unpack the cute, aqua decoupage crafts, hang the paintings, make her new bed, and close the door on her childhood. YIKES! My dear girl is ready, and I am so glad because this sobbing momma couldn't take it if my girl was a crying mess beside me. If you think to pray for strength, this momma would be forever indebted to you as I know that I can do all things through Christ even if it means leaving my heart in the world without me beside her.