Monday, May 30, 2011
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Saturday, May 28, 2011
It is pictures like this one that cause my heart to cry out to God for Him to continue to use me to bring more orphans home. I received an email yesterday from a contact I have made in China. She was begging for prayer and advocacy for the handsome young man in the picture here who is about to age out of the orphanage and desperately wants a forever family.
Here is her first message about him:
"I made a call to Hui Zhou SWI.They asked how much donation they would like to pay?
They said it is fine for reduce the donation.They want to help the boy.
Last time he asked Ms Luo about the his adoption family .He almost cry and feel sad that he cannot be adopted after 14 years old.
Ms Luo feel sad and want to help him.
He likes singing very much.The party of children's day this year,he is going to sing a song for friends.
He is healthy.Seldom get a cold."
And here was her 2nd message. She apparently called the orphanage again after the message above:
"Here is the message from the orphanage.The director said they are welcome for any amount of the donation .
They just want the boy to have a happy life.
He likes singing and playing the badminton .
His heart surgery was success. He is very healthy now.
He would like to be adopted.He would like to have the love from Baba and Mama"
This young man, and so many others, are still waiting with little hope of ever having a momma and daddy to love them. Oh please pray dear friends for this handsome young man to find a family.
As I am writing this, I am thinking about a dear friend's testimony the other night. She used Matthew West's song My Own Little World. Her words had a profound effect on me and I can't help but think that I have lived in my own little world so long. So I'm thinking the chorus as I pray for this young man..God break my heart for what breaks yours. Give me open hands and open doors. Keep breaking my heart God for the orphan and don't allow me to return to the place of complacency that I have been living in for so long.
Friday, May 27, 2011
Pray for Jill, and our family, as we ready to enter this next stage. Oh God is so good to give us this precious girl who at this momment is sound asleep up in her bed. Busy morning for her. It still affects me so that as soon as so many meet her they just cry over her. She is a miracle.
Thursday, May 26, 2011
When I am driving down the road and I look back to see this, I am often over come with emotion as I remember God's miraculous provision to get this little one home. She has no idea yet how God provided so that she could join us, but you better believe that she will hear the stories of God's faithfulness again and again. That's what I wish to convey most to those who ask. God is so faithful and His heart's desire is for the orphan to come home. He says so in His word and He will provide. We had no plan-no money saved-no idea how in the world we would come up with the nearly $30,000 that it would cost to get our sweet pea home with us BUT we stepped out in faith and said yes anyway. Never once did we go without. Never once did we stand with empty hands when a ransom was due for our precious treasure. God is the great provider. I KNOW THIS because of this incredible journey and so many others He has led me on. If money is holding you back..HEAR THIS: GOD WILL PROVIDE ALL YOU NEED IF YOU ARE WILLING TO SAY YES. So thankful that I said yes to this precious face..
The one who calls you is faithful. He will surely do it. 1 Thessolonians 5:24
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
She had never had the chance to..experience the sun and wind on her face or feel the grass on her legs while her momma takes a hundred pictures. (POOR GIRL!)
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Thursday, May 19, 2011
(Does anyone know how to turn this? So frustrating..) Little sissy loves being held by her big sis. She is constantly asking Em to pick her up. Got to love their matching hot pink shirt and jeans ensembles. Did I mention how much I love having my girls home? I love summer!!
Jill loves having some big sis time in the bean bag chair playing some Wipe Out on the DS. She is just about ready for one of her own. Don't you think? Beyond precious to see these two together. Shopping with Em the other day in the junior's section and lamenting over how grown she has become..To which she replies, Jill still shops in the baby section. So true dear friends..So true. A teenager and a baby..Who would have thought? Certainly not my plan, but truly the Lord's and I am loving ever single minute. Love these girls.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
She was doing so well that I decided to take her to visit my classroom. She responded so well to my kids and we were able to walk up to the office and visit there too. We stayed out almost an hour and a half altogether yesterday morning. This is just simply miraculous considering three weeks ago she couldn't leave the bed in our hotel room without a major meltdown.
Then we visited the doctor in the afternoon for an ear recheck.
Let me first say that she enjoyed the lobby at the doctor's office!! :) (Oh, we have come so far.) She played with the bead toys and walked around exploring everywhere clutching to my finger as she walked. Everywhere we go everyone is still just so attracted to her. They all ask about her and want to know her story. Yesterday at the doctor, we even ran into a woman who shopped at our garage sale so she recognized Jill from her pictures there.
The doctor is beyond amazing with Jill. The entire office rallies around her and they are so caring and very knowledgeable. Her ears are better. They are still really bad BUT they are better. So we had two options..a shot of antibiotics to give her a boost or just change the oral to a different kind. I chose the oral because frankly I couldn't bare the thought of her getting a shot. I know it will have to come and I will be there crying over her, but I plan to put it off as long as I can. :) She even gained some weight-2 oz. I am thrilled because it has seemed like she is eating less since switching to American formula.
Really it is miraculous to witness her changing. Goodness...she is just so sweet and I love her so very much! Keep praying for those ears and that she will begin to eat some food soon. We aren't making much progress with eating although she is taking her bottle well.
I feel like a broken record when I keep saying-she is a living miracle and I am blessed beyond measure to be her momma, but quite simply those are the only words I can say to express my heart!
Monday, May 16, 2011
I was watching you sleep just now. You tuck your little legs under you and sleep on your tummy with your thumb in your mouth most of the night. Your little cheeks are so full that your mouth is nearly invisible. Oh how I want to remember these moments. I want to remember all that this last three weeks has brought us and how far you have come. I want to remember the depths of the pain and the trials you have gone through so that I can remember the over whelming joy of your restoration. God has been so good to give you to us sweet girl and we are nuts about you. We love to have you in our arms and are just amazed at how well you are doing. How I wish I could freeze time so that I could remember the joy in your grandparent's eyes when you let them hold you for the first time or the thrill of seeing you take your first steps toward me after being home only a few weeks. How I long so much to tell you ever detail of every moment and what it feels like to be becoming you momma. I am not sure I have to the words to really describe all that is in my heart or to tell you all that you mean to me. When you read this one day..I just want you to know what a miracle you are and how very blessed we feel to have been given the chance to have you-to call you our daughter. You are a precious treasure..a planting of the Lord for the display of His splendor my sweet one. God's splendor is all over you..
Loving you with all my heart,
They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor. Isaiah 61:3b
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Praying that you enjoy her as much as I do. She is the real thing.
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Friday, May 13, 2011
Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul. Rescue me from my enemies, O Lord, for I hide myself in you. Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good spirit lead me to level ground. Psalm 143:8-10
Some things about that verse just jumped out at me today. Trust. He will show me. He will teach me. He will give me all I need to be her momma. And little by little she will open up her heart to me. I am sure of that this morning as His mercies are new each day. Also finding joy in the journey as she sits in my lap on the floor and lets me hold her in front of the hall mirror. She let me hold her so long that my arms ached, but my heart was overflowing with joy.
Level Ground. When I wrote this in the wee hours of the morning this morning..I was begging for level ground. Well, my little sweet pea stayed awake late enough this morning to ride along when I took big sis to school. She sat in her car seat in the back making the strangest faces and I think she might have even enjoyed it. It felt so normal to have both of my girls in the car. Normal and Level. I even drove through Starbucks with her and got a hot tea. :) Praise God for answering my plea for a little level ground today. He is so good in the mist of our trials.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Grinning ear to ear driving her to school today thinking about how grown she is. Looking at those size ten shoes next to Jill's infant size 4 makes me remember just how quickly these last eleven years have gone with her. How I wish I could just freeze this precious time with my girls.
Em has been so beyond beautiful during the last three weeks. She has learned so much about serving others and putting yourself last. I am so happy that she got to experience this with us. I was so thrilled last night to hear her say the words..sissy did it. Sissy. I think about the meaning behind that and all that this adoption has given Em-a sister. Someone to walk alongside her in this life as she deals with her two crazy parents. Another soul to roll her eyes with when her momma is crying her eyes out because of some silly little thing like how much she has grown. Someone to call daddy weirdo with when he is dancing and being a goof. Someone to love and help along in this life. Someone to call when she is hurting. Someone to be her bridesmaid.
Oh I can hardly stand all the gains that we have in our life because of this precious girl being ours. I think all the time that we simply could have missed it. We could have told God no to adoption. We could have said we were too old, we didn't have the money, we couldn't do it, we weren't able, it would just be too hard, or a host of other excuses. We could have missed out on it all. I could have missed being this baby's momma. Oh the thought is just far too horrible to consider. So amazed at the depth of my love for these precious girls that God has given me to raise up and so looking forward to watching them grow as friends.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Monday, May 9, 2011
Sunday, May 8, 2011
She decided to empty out the diaper basket today. She is in to everything and we are so happy about that.
She discovered how fun it was to pull all of the stuff off the lower part of the refrigerator. I am loving that smile and so glad she is doing normal two year old things.
Shhhh..She invaded big sis's playroom and decided to pick up Em's Barbies and push her Barbie car for a while. Aren't those little jeans and her t-shirt precious?
She is feeling so loved and welcomed by everyone. Thank you dear friends for you help, support, and prayers. We hope to be out and about soon!
Jill is getting stronger and stronger. She is so comfortable here and doing so much more. I am praising God for how far my baby girl has come in just the last few days. If her sleeping pattern can get closer to normal this momma will be even happier. Until then, enjoying our 2:00AM play sessions and love hearing her little feet pitter pattering around the house at 4:00 AM. God is so good to allow us to parent our little girl. She is a true joy!
Friday, May 6, 2011
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Abundant gains for us indeed! Watching God slowly heal this little broken heart is almost too beautiful for me to witness. I am overcome with emotion when I see her daddy scoop her up and I hear her laugh. She is so valuable, precious, and perfect in the eyes of this family. She was meant to be ours from the beginning of time and we are so very thankful that God has given us the task of raising her up. I watch her learning that we love her and will care for her and I am blown away by God's great plan. She is my daughter and for that I will always be grateful to the Lord.
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
This morning though was a different story. We had to go to the US consulate to be sworn in as a citizen and do the last bit of paperwork (WAHOOOO!!!). She screamed for three solid hours. She would not calm down, but she did not push me away. I held that precious, screaming her eyes out little babe for three solid hours. I have to admit-it was exhausting and draining. My heart breaks that this is so hard for her. As I walked and walked the halls of the US consulate, I prayed over her aloud and somehow we managed to get through it. Poor McGinnis family had to share an appointment and van with us while Jill cried for the three hours.
Really dreading the flight home. We need God to exert His power over our little hurting baby and I am petitioning His throne on a regular basis begging him to give her peace. We fly out on Thurs. morning at 10:35 AM which will be Wed. at 9:35 PM there. Please pray for her. We are desperate to get her home comfortably.
Sunday, May 1, 2011
So it's off to get her TB test checked today and then shopping at the Jade and Pearl Market for Em and I. Shopping. Lots of Shopping here. Enjoying my outings with Em so much. Jill's need to stay in is almost a blessing in disguise as it is helping us make sure we spend quality alone time with each of our girls.
Keep praying. I can't believe how much stronger Jill is already. Her belly isn't sunken in anymore and she is getting a bit of a round tummy. She is eating like crazy. She had 48 oz yesterday. She even seemed interested in my oatmeal, but wouldn't take any. She laughs and giggles, gives kisses, and plays. She is improving so much.
Four more days until we are back in the USA.