Sunday, January 15, 2017
Thinking of Her Birth Mother
It's late. I am just putting the finishing touches on a paint splatter t-shirt with a number six stuck on and an art palette cake because tomorrow is my almost six year old treasure's birthday. Tonight in the quiet of my house while everyone sleeps, my heart is filled with thoughts of her. The mother who knew and held my baby girl first is facing this day without her. I simply can't imagine what it is like to live through this day..my darling Anna Mei's birthday..every year. What must her thoughts be on this day? Does her heart break longing to know the one she surrendered? Does she know anything about what happened to her baby girl after she left that corner? Can she even let herself imagine how blessed we are because of her sacrifice? I can't pretend that I have any understanding of what transpires in her heart, but I love her. I love her and am so connected to her. I am grateful on this day for the immeasurable gift God planted in her womb. Oh, how I would give anything for just a moment with her. A moment to stand in the sacred space that is between us, and just be. Two different mothers who share the same daughter.