As I think of bringing home our Anna Mei, I have so many emotions.
I can't wait to have another sweet baby girl to call daughter.
I am over the moon excited to have another to lead in the ways of our Lord.
I look forward to so many things.
there is also a great deal of fear and many questions and what ifs.
What if I can't care for two treasures with special needs?
What if I can't love them both as much as they need?
(I could go on and on.)
One thing I know is that this fear does not come from God.
when fear begins to grip my heart I remember.
I remember my first sweet treasure when she was first placed in my arms.
I remember her at 26 months.
Unable to walk.
Unable to eat solid food.
Unwilling to be held, cuddled, or loved.
I remember her low assessment scores.
Speech skills at 2 months.
Cognitive skills at 6 months.
That was then..
And this, my friends, is now...
She is vibrant, full of life.
She is signing up a storm, eating and chewing, and loves all attention to be on her at all times.
She loves, cuddles, and enjoys so many things.
She is a gifted climber, can run so fast, and takes apart everything.
She is a precious, valuable gift!
I wouldn't change a minute of this crazy, hard journey to our first adopted treasure.
Jillian is a miracle and she has come so far.
She is not a typical kid, but one who will likely always have challenges as she faces daily life.
I have come to cherish her just as God has made her.
I give thanks that God has allowed me a part of watching her come as far as she has.
I look forward to the future and know that He has numbered every one of our days.
I trust Him.
He is faithful.
He has shown Himself mighty in my life.
He knows our Anna Mei.
He set her perfectly in our family and I trust Him with this adoption.
I will not fear!
I will lean on the one who made me and set this journey before me!
(Now..if I could just be patient with His timing to get to our newest girl home.)
"For I know the plans that I have for you," declares the Lord, "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11