getting our girl home

Here I am logged into this space knowing that I have about five seconds before someone screams, poops, or calls for me with a impatient voice.  There is so much to say..so much going on in my heart, and yet the space and time to process is so elusive.  Days are chaotic, loud, and demanding.  Quiet and peace escape me as moments run together at such speed that days, weeks, and months jumble together.  I wish I could just stop for a second to get out some of the very important things that God is planting in my heart.  I long to just drink in the beauty that is marbled with the hard as I journey through this life.  How I desire so much to just have some time to be soaking in the Lord.  Yet with twenty hours a week of medical appointments, tea parties, requests for "SWING ME!", and so much more that demands my attention..such time doesn't ever come.  Isolation, business, and tasks so numerous it is impossible to not be overwhelmed are the enemies that haunt me these days, and yet even in the hardest of times this great HOPE that I carry from knowing Jesus is such a comfort.  This is all so temporary..the crazy, the chaos, the overwhelming..will all pass away, but this glorious HOPE is mine for eternity.  This morning I praise my God that He chose me.  I am grateful to know His love.  As I was feeling particularly overwhelmed one day last week, He pursued me making sure that Matthew 6:25 came up three different times over a span of two days.  Three times I read or heard..

Do Not Worry

25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[e]?

28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Three times the God of the universe revealed Himself to me to provide comfort and reassurance just because He loves me.  And I feel so incredibly burdened for those who go through this life without Jesus because, while my moments can be overwhelming just like everyone else, I have this JOY that comes in the morning.  I have this one who carries me when I can't walk myself.  I have this one who is beside me..inside me..day in and day out.  I have this one who never, never leaves me..never lets me down..never forgets me.  One who reminds me daily that I am His.  Beyond grateful this morning for this HOPE only Jesus can give.