Somehow despite the huge gaping hole in my heart because my baby girl is not here and still waits in China, life goes on. We get up everyday, experience joy, sadness, and change all while aching to know the one who we call ours though she lives a half a world away. As long as I live, I will never understand how I can love and miss someone so very much that I don't yet know, but despite having done this adoption thing before it still baffles me that I am Molly Kate's mother already in my heart and that every single day I long to have her home.
This was the first year our Jillian wasn't afraid of the pumpkins. She really enjoyed it!
We ended the day eating fudge and talking about Molly Kate while Jilly and Daddy were (you guessed it) still playing in the corn. What a beautiful, bittersweet day without our Molly Kate.
Until the day that my sweet Molly is resting in my arms, life goes on in her absence, but there isn't a minute that she isn't on my mind and that I am not wishing she was in these experiences right alongside her sisters.
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