So we were all jammed on the couch last night wrestling around and I thought (and said out loud) soon we'll have one more to fit on this couch!! (Soon is a relative term as the waiting at this point is taking forever it seems.) Then my darling kiddo switched my cell phone to international time mode and we checked the time in China. We were getting ready to go to bed but half a world away it was almost lunch time. Which leads my mind off and running in a million different directions..Is Jillian born yet? Has she been abandoned? Does she have someone to feed her lunch? Who is holding her? Does she have any surgeries or medical procedures that she is facing without her momma by her side? And then the tears start to flow. There are days that the waiting is bareable and then there are others that just rip me to shreds. My heart is broken that my beautiful girl is living this part of her life without me while I wait for government agencies to shuffle paperwork!
I can only rest in knowing that God has ordained all this for us and that His plan is perfect. Until my time comes, I find peace in knowing that there are so many other families walking the same road that I am on. I love being a part of their journey and sharing in their joy as they are united with the children. This is an awesome new gotcha day video from a family that has been home just about a month. Sweeeet!
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