I was sharing with a friend this week that Jill hasn't made any speech sounds since the day that she said mama. Almost back to silence.. Why? Puzzled. How can she make such big gains and then revert back to nothing? Then my friend mentioned the night terror. Did it happen after her night terrors? Of course it did. (Duh moment for momma.) That is exactly when she was ushered back into her silence. Man. This is so complex. There is so much going on in this little mind and heart. I have no idea how to handle most of this and no clue what to do to help her.
Yesterday she refused to go in the kitchen. Won't eat in there now. Out of the blue, she cried uncontrollably and got out of there ASAP when I tried to feed her in her usual spot on the floor. Today she is still filled with anxiety if you even try to get her in there. She was clutching to Daddy this morning and terrified. So, I fed her in the dining room which she is comfortable with. Why is she so afraid all of a sudden? I wish I could tell what she was thinking. I wish I could communicate with her and reassure her. I wish I could make her feel safe. I wish.. I know that God is in control and I should embrace this helplessness BUT it can be so stinkin hard to watch her struggle. Praying today..for wisdom, understanding, and strength to be able to help this little one heal.
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